Messages for My Children: A Journey Back to Myself

I was sitting at the kitchen table looking outside thru the window to the backyard I saw a Blue Jay.  I have never seen one before in the years that I lived at this house.  So, I watched the bird go up into the tree.

I looked up the spiritual meaning of Blue Jay.

                Truth

                Faithfulness

                Solidarity

                Symbolic of endurance

                Patience

                Loyalty

                Clarity

                Vision.

I was daydreaming.  Thinking of all of the rain we received to how it changed the green in the yard and trees.  While looking out of the corner of my right eye I saw a vision of a flash of gold yellow color.  I thought it was a reflection of color off of the aluminum foil, that was by the kitchen window. I looked in that direction and the blinds were closed.  Then I doubted myself, but I truly saw the gold yellow flash.  I was fascinated by this gold yellow light and search the web to find its meaning.  I came across a post saying Angel Colors.  I starting to read.

Archangel Jophiel

• She is also associated with the color yellow, which is linked to her role as the angel of beautiful thoughts. 

• helps people learn how to think in enlightening ways. 
• Find new perspectives. 
• Discover more of the beauty of God’s holiness.  To see themselves as God sees them. 
• Recognize how valuable they are. 
• Seek creative inspiration. 
• Overcome ugliness of additions and unhealthy thought patterns. 
• Absorbs information and study for tests.  Solves problems. 
• Discover more of God’s joy in their lives. 
• Is known as the angel of beauty, wisdom, and illumination, and is often seen as the patron angel of artists. 
• She can help you with emotional healing and releasing negativity. 

I used to read and write all the time, but somewhere along the way, I stopped.  Mostly due to the influences around me at the time.  But when I began writing again, specially that passage about the Archangel, I now realize it marked the beginning of a new chapter in my healing journey.  Through all of life’s struggles, I was slowly learning how to heal and find my own way back to myself.

I started to concentrate on the positive, something we all talk about, but this time, I truly committed to it.  I wanted to record this journey in a way my kids can look back on someday, so they’ll know that no matter what life brings, you can overcome anything when you put your heart and mind to it.

There was a time when I lost myself, influenced by people and situations that made me forget who I was.  Walking away from an unhealthy marriage, rediscovering my voice through writing, and learning to love myself again were not easy steps.  But I kept going.  And the choice to heal, to trust, to believe in something greater changed everything.  That’s what I want my children to see that strength isn’t about perfection, it’s about choosing love and light even in the dark.

Keep shining your light.